How to live a happy life

Lately, I have lived a life of discontent and I have been thinking of ways or philosphy to live a happy life and you know what I have learned, not setting up the bar high in life doesn't work nor risking everything to go for something that does not have assurance and end up being hurt eventually will just make you bitter and stupid. Living a very cautious life is not the best option either and living a worry-free life will just make you laidback and high risk and have a lower mortality compared to the careful ones, so what exactly will make us live a happy life. Saying living life to the fullest is vague and cliche and can be misinterpreted to make stupid choices because oppurtunity doesn't knock everyday or something and eventually regretting our stupid choices.
To be honest, I do not know either. I think acceptance is the key. Acceptance that life is not perfect but we have the power to make a choice that we are going to be happy. In my situation, I just try to do the little things to make me happy. For example, I exercise to get those endorphines pumping in and making me just a cheerful person, I smile and greet people. I am courteous and I am just generally nice even to strangers. You know what they say, smile and the world will smile with you.
I know, you are just thinking that nothing bad is happening to me so far that's why I seem to be cheerful lately but honestly, I am not triumphant and successful in all aspect of my life but here's the thing, I told myself already that my life has a very high rate to be unfortunate so always expect the worse but not be a pessimist, meaning just be prepared and be ready to give yourself the support and the strength that you will need when the time comes.
As my friend, Kahren told me once that I just chose to be happy because I was asking her why I am genuinely happy for someone when most people are thinking that I should be sad or not happy at all for that person. Kahren is right, being happy is a choice. If you also want to be happy of course, you don't choose choices that will complicate your life. I am not saying not to risk anything but if you initially knew that something will not last, why risk your reputation and happiness, when you already knew that you will get hurt in the end? That is just masochism and stupid and I am tired of getting hurt and living a life full of depression and imperfection.
How to live a happy life? Make good choices, have an adventure, be prepared with the worst, do your best to be happy and just be nice and eventually you will be rewarded.

The Right Time

When is the right time to fall in love again? Is it after the painful separation or after some time?
Para sa akin, kelangan after some time kasi kapag right after baka naman maging rebound lang kayo ng isa't isa eh pero mukhang wala rin namang masamang maging rebound kasi kapag naging rebound ka ng isang tao, pwedeng super maattched na siya sa yo kasi nga nahurt na sila pero ang masama rin sa pagiging rebound ay syempre, me puwang pa rin sa puso nila yung original nilang mahal, replacement ka lang.
Ang problema naman sa after some time eh baka me mga napalagpas ka ng mga taong pwede ka sanang mahalin, pinagantay mo lang ng matagal kaya nagsawa na sila sa kakaantay, ang arte mo kasi. Hahahaha. Sa tingin ko, wala rin yun sa timing eh, nasa tao yun. I mean, kung yung taong papalit at muling paiibigin ka ulet ay ang taong destiny mo na or nakatakdang mahalin maging siya man ang the one or hindi, eventually mamahalin mo rin siya. Kasi me nagsabi sa akin nung isang araw, hindi naman sa hindi ka ready noon, sadyang pagdating sa kanya, ready ka na. hahahaha, at first, hindi ko naintindihan pero parang ang point ng nagsabi non, kahit noong January pa dumating ang taong ito, kahit anong arte ko sa ayoko ng masaktan BS and all that tatanggapin ko pa rin siya.

Crazy for James Younghusband

Today, I'm on PTO or leave whatever. I had a lot of things to do pero syempre natulog lang ako buong umaga since I was also nursing a headache. After errands that I had to run, gising pa rin ako and wala akong magawa so nakinig na lang ako sa Lazy Song ni Bruno Mars and sa music ni Lenka. Tawang tawa talaga ako dun sa mga unggoy sa video ni Bruno Mars. Anyways, nagsearch na rin ako ng mga pictures ni James Younghusband. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, para happy ako lagi iisipin ko na lang sya ang jowa ko... haha at busy kami sa aming career kaya hindi kami nagkikita. Hahahaha. For two days, it has been working, mas disciplined ako sa diet ko, syempre kung ito boyfriend ko kelangan talaga sexy ako noh. Basta he inspires me and he has a good effect on me so tuloy ko lang tong kalokohan ko.

I remembered the first time that I saw him.... sa billboard sa my SLEX.... Ito yung exact picture, I think for Hanford yan. Since hindi ako ngfocus sa product, hindi rin ako msyadong sure. Hehe. Asa college palang ako nun, last year ko na sa college yun eh. Haaay... tapos sumali si Phil sa Celebrity Duets, naexcite pa nga ako nung narinig ko na Younghusband eh kasi I read them from a magazine and narealize ko na magkapatid nga pala yung Younghusband so me possibility na hindi si James yung kasali sa Celebrity Duets at hindi nga siya, si Phil kaya I didn't bother. Since model siya at hindi naman ako makapanood ng mga fashion shows na involve siya, akala ko hindi ko na siya makikita ever pero ang ganitong lalake, hindi mo maiignore eh. Bigla silang sumikat gawa ng Azkals or the other way around, whatever, ang importante sa akin, nakikita ko na siya ng mas madalas. Natuwa pa ako na malapit lang pala siya, I mean taga-Alabang lang ako eh at lagi pang me sighting yung friend ko ng brother niyang si Phil sa ATC.
Naexcite lang ako sa article na to na nabasa ko sa net. Naisip ko bigla, has he met me already, bakit parang dinescribe niya ako? Go to this article to know what I'm talking about http://www.cosmo.ph/hot-hunks/male-celebrity-spotlight/10-things-james-younghusband-loves-about-filipinas/
So sa mga taong marami ng utang sa akin na gift, pwede na sa akin yung CD ni Lenka saka si James Younghusband, I know 5 months pa ang birthday ko pero paghandaan niyo na!

What a wonderful world.

It is human to never be contented. When we get something that we want, we realized that we want something more and we never stop wanting more. Within the past years, I have realized to lower my expectations in life therefore, not being hurt so much since I am not so disappointed in life that I have ended living a life with seemingly no goals and aspirations. In reality, I have a goal and that is to be successful, it's just that it's not as detailed, it's just as simple as this... my goal in life is to be successful, I haven't been able to actually define how or what successful means in my life. I am just so young and I am still not so sure what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. All I know is that for this time, I want to earn money and grab the oppurtunity of increasing my pay or whatever. I will pay my debts and bills and try to save up.

Sometimes, people are just so caught up of being successful and achieving their goals, it's not like, something's bad about it, it's just sometimes or rather, most of the time, we tend to forget what's really important and we forget to be thankful of the simple things. We just see all the bad things around us and we forget to be thankful about things. Lately, I am just so caught up on stressing myself about some family and work issues that I forgot to take care of myself. I wasn't getting the medical attention that I needed until something happened today. When it comes to my health, because of my lifestyle that I just don't care about life as much as other people do, I tend to forget taking care of myself and end up living a really awful lifestyle.

I woke up this morning with a lot of pain and I am just not feeling great. It hit me that something is not right about my body and I might be in danger. Death, as usual, has stopped scaring me but I just realized that even though I am not very excited with my life, I should not go down like this because I am special and this is a wonderful world. Despite all the natural calamities that has been happening, I still think that there's something to be thankful. Every day, I get to wake up and get another chance in life and to correct my mistakes. I get to spend time with people that I care about and people that I am so fond of.

I am not very happy maybe because I am not really sure of what's happening but I promise that by Monday, I am going to get medical attention that I need and I will stop abusing myself and just be more positive with life since people who are more optimistic with life live longer.    

Career over everything else

Sometimes I just don't know what will make me happy. Most of the time,  money makes me happy... sometimes, it's as simple as that. Money never failed to make me happy and compared to other things, mas mababa ang collateral damage when it comes to money. I mean, minsan kasi kapag ang happiness mo ay nakadepende sa isang tao, that person also has the power of making you sad and depressed. Pero kapag pera at least kapag nawala yun, you just have to work hard so that you can get more money again and minsan pagod lang naman ang kapalit ang pwede ka namang magpahinga tuwing weekend or something, me bakasyon naman, dun ka na lang magpahinga.Ayoko lang ng nasasaktan or what, masyadong mahirap bumangon kasi kapag nalungkot ka at nawala ka na sa focus or whatever. From now on, I am going to choose career and focus on it para mas marami akong magawa para marami akong pera and I don't have to depend on somebody just to make me happy. Shoes, dresses and accessories make me happy and I'm all set and I'll be able to obtain them kapag marami akong moolah.

Tatanggapin ko na lan na malas at wala akong happy ending

Before, I always question my purpose on this earth and why it seems like sh*t happens to me and now I know the answer, I am the person who is to experience pain and suffering, loss, failure, lahat na ng negatibo. I will still smile, be loopy and crazy kasi if hindi baka I just end up killing myself dahil hindi ko na keri. Basta gumising na lang ako isang araw at sinabi kong suko na ako sa pagpursue sa aking happiness, from now on, to be happier and more contented with life, I will lower my expectations from life. Hindi ko na sasabihing, this is going to be a wonderful day kasi kapag hindi yun nangyayari, nadedepress lang ako at ewan. Sasabihin ko na lang lagi na this is going to be the same as every other day para me mangyari mang depressing, sasabihin ko, kaya mo 'yan, masanay ka na, lagi ka namang nagsstruggle di ba? Kapag me mangyaring masaya, pasalamat sa Diyos, naalala pa niyang tao ka at minsan kelangan mo ng sprinkle ng happiness. Ok na yung ganitong buhay sa akin, at least, me mga goals man ako, iniisip ko na lang na I will work hard to reach it, makuha ko man o hindi, bahala na. Gusto ko lang ng me ginagawa hanggang sa dumating yung point na deads na ako. Napakapositive ba?