Lately, all my blog has talked about is pain and depression. Sometimes, we'll just have to go with the emotions and at some point and time, we have to eventually move on. We have to do the best that we can and everything that we needed to do just for the sake of our own sanity. Was I crazy? Not exactly but I have been depressed and I have been doing everything that I can not to show or not to end up messing with my life big time. I have been sick for two weeks and being sick just made me sadder. I ended up not going to the gym and not eating and losing passion for everything that I loved. I have decided to stand up again and continue with catching up with all the things that I needed to do. I have returned to the gym, started my painting project again and listening to music as my outlet. I decided not to take life very seriously. I am somehow inspired by Holly Holiday. She is just so cool and free. I wanted to feel and live that way, she says that she lives a life with no consequence, I don't really think that way, I think, she just don't take life all that serious, she just does what she needs to do and have fun with life and that's what I am going to do. I know I have a lot of issues about my life, about different aspects in my life but I don't want to deal with them right now. I will just let it hang there, it will always be there anyway.... and hopefully, things will just be right and perfect again and if it doesn't, well, shit happens, we usually have a bad day and I'll just smile and pray that I will have the strength, the sanity, the friends and alcohol and of course, my luckies to stick with me through the rough times. peace out!
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