It is human to never be contented. When we get something that we want, we realized that we want something more and we never stop wanting more. Within the past years, I have realized to lower my expectations in life therefore, not being hurt so much since I am not so disappointed in life that I have ended living a life with seemingly no goals and aspirations. In reality, I have a goal and that is to be successful, it's just that it's not as detailed, it's just as simple as this... my goal in life is to be successful, I haven't been able to actually define how or what successful means in my life. I am just so young and I am still not so sure what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. All I know is that for this time, I want to earn money and grab the oppurtunity of increasing my pay or whatever. I will pay my debts and bills and try to save up.
Sometimes, people are just so caught up of being successful and achieving their goals, it's not like, something's bad about it, it's just sometimes or rather, most of the time, we tend to forget what's really important and we forget to be thankful of the simple things. We just see all the bad things around us and we forget to be thankful about things. Lately, I am just so caught up on stressing myself about some family and work issues that I forgot to take care of myself. I wasn't getting the medical attention that I needed until something happened today. When it comes to my health, because of my lifestyle that I just don't care about life as much as other people do, I tend to forget taking care of myself and end up living a really awful lifestyle.
I woke up this morning with a lot of pain and I am just not feeling great. It hit me that something is not right about my body and I might be in danger. Death, as usual, has stopped scaring me but I just realized that even though I am not very excited with my life, I should not go down like this because I am special and this is a wonderful world. Despite all the natural calamities that has been happening, I still think that there's something to be thankful. Every day, I get to wake up and get another chance in life and to correct my mistakes. I get to spend time with people that I care about and people that I am so fond of.
I am not very happy maybe because I am not really sure of what's happening but I promise that by Monday, I am going to get medical attention that I need and I will stop abusing myself and just be more positive with life since people who are more optimistic with life live longer.
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