Relaxation... Mimi-style

There's nothing really special about me so my ways of chilling out and relaxation is pretty much the same as everybody else's. I usually get a massage, have my rest day coffee just to unwind, watch a movie and meditate(?!). I realized since I like getting massages and going to places just to relax, I will start dedicating my blog entries to relaxation... hehe, since writing is also one way for me to remove the stress.
Anyway, this week is Memorial week so my rest day is split-off, Monday-Thursday. Monday, I just slept... for me, sleeping is not actually relaxing, it's a requirement for the day ahead plus sometimes you just end up sleeping even if you're super stressed out and restless because it is your body's requirement.. amf. I woke up and my sister and I watched The Roommate.

Initially, I was only interested in watching that movie because of Leighton Meester and because it's a thriller movie. Being an avid fan of Gossip Girl and horror movies, I felt that this movie is just the perfect mix. Hahahaha. It's the story of a girl who has gone obsessed with her roommate and end up eliminating those whom she feels like has a negative effect on her roommate. It's not a very good movie, good thing, they decided to put beautiful people in the cast, even the extras and the old people there look good and the chemistry of each and every cast member was not compromised so kudos for the casting boo for the storyline and for killing the kitten. Perfect movie if you are sick and tired of watching movies that you have seen at least 5 times in your life. (I really love watching zombie movies but I've seen dawn of the dead more than 10 times already, land of the dead and  shaun of the dead more than 5 times and other zombie movies at least 3 times... I need a break from those even if it's a terrible movie that I have to watch).
It's not that bad but it's really not good either. Hahahaha. The only thing that I like about it is the fact that none of the major characters died except for the crazy person. Ha! Spoiler alert! Spoiler alert! (and it's too late.... hahahaha) and Rebecca's convertible, (aww, so jealous!). The things that I didn't like about the movie is the lack of details, I mean ok, Emily died when Sara was nine but from what and what's really in Rebecca's past that drove her crazy, just the fact that she's a rich girl without friends so she just ends up trying to make one and if she can't, she does crazy things? Whatever. Meester is really a good actress although her character is not so far from Blair Waldorf in Gossip Girl, she's spoiled and rich and manipulative only less crazy and more independent. I know she's a natural blonde but I really prefer having her as a brunette.

Elevator conversations

9 floors yung building namin pero kasi me kashare kaming ibang company sa building namin at grabe, kahit 2nd floor lang ineelevator pa nila na kahit mas matagal pa yung pag-aantay nila kesa sa pagsakay nila eh talagang tinatiyagan nila. Grabe, kaya napakaraming matataba at malalaki ang ass dun eh, hindi kasi marunong maglakad. Hay naku.

Anyway, inorasan ko na ang pagbaba kasi seryoso humihinto sa 2nd floor, 3rd floor at 4th floor yung elevator at umaabot ng 3 minutes ang elevator. Hay nakow at dahil dun marami akong naririnig na usapan ng mga taong nakasakay dun.

One time, syempre yung bwisit ng mga tao sa mga taga-2nd 3rd and 4th floor. I mean, alam naman nilang may sapak yung mga elevator sa amin na nasstuck yung mga tao pero wala, kahit na puno, pupunuin pa rin nila eh alam naman nilang sobrang laki at taba nila! OMG. One day, I hope, mastuck sila sa elevator at malate para matrauma naman sa pageelevator.

Me narinig pa akong kwentuhan ng dalawang lalake tungkol sa mga babae na narealize ng isang lalake na yung girl niya ay panget pala kapag walang make-up. I don't think the girl that they were talking about is not his girlfriend kasi kung pag-usapan at laitin nila eh mukhang FUBU lang niya or whatever yung girl. Sabi kasi ng kausap niya ayos lang yun pare, madilim naman kapag nag-aano kayo eh or gusto mo takpan mo na lang yung mukha ng kumot.

Isa pa sa mga kwentong naririnig ko sa elevator eh tungkol sa isang babae. Pinag-uusapan ng dalawang babae ang isang babae nila friend na nagpapakatanga sa isang lalake. Ang kwento nila eh ginagawa na ng girl lahat para sa panget niyang boyfriend pero wala pa rin at mukha na talagang tanga yung friend. Nangiti na lang ako sa elevator because the story was so familiar and at least this time, hindi na ako ang CONCERNED friend na nasisira ang araw dahil sa isang WALANG KWENTANG lalake.

May isa pang buong team ang pumasok sa elevator at narinig ko ang kwento nila tungkol sa isa nilang team mate na tinatawag nilang baliw. Itong baliw nilang team mate magaling naman sa stats and whatever kaya kapag nagsumbong daw sa TL eh malamang mas kakampihan pa yung baliw kahit na mas close sila sa TL nila. Hay, wala naman akong nasabi dun. Mejo kilala ko yung team na yun and if you're going to ask me, yung tao na nagsasalita sa elevator eh parang mas baliw pa sa whoever they were talking about. Hahahaha, just never like her face kasi pati eh and her negative vibes. :))

I know chismosa ako. Haha, ganyan talaga kung wala kang masyadong kasama at iniisip na naabsorb mo na lang ang pinag-uusapan ng ibang tao. In fairness, nagkaroon ako ng mga realization habang nakasakay ako sa elevator.

Actually, hindi naman marami ang naging realization ko, ang pinakamatindi kong naging realization ay mean talaga ang mga babae. I mean, imagine, laitin ba ang babae about not putting on any make-up and takpan na lang ang mukha with a kumot??? Haler, hindi siya super gwapo, ako hindi lang kumot ang itatakip ko sa kanya, pati yung kurtina saka yung pambalot ng kama saka comforter saka yung shower curtain ng banyo. Argh! tapos yung babaeng martyr, sige lang. Pakamartyr lang siya, nakakababa siya sa aming mga babae, wish her all the best though pero hopefully, one day sana makameet ng guy yun na mabuti at somebody she deserves.

Lucky and Grateful; Acts of Random Kindness; Family and Former Friends

        When you are a good person, you are being rewarded. I am just so happy right now. I am living a life where in I am just nice to people although there will be occasional bitchiness, I believe in Karma and to random acts of kindness. I remember in 2009, we were asked by our professor, Ms. Jacinto, what our New Year's resolution was. I told them that since I failed a year ago about my New Year's resolution which is to lose 10 lbs, I will just be getting a New Year's resolution that will benefit not just me but the whole world, if possible.

        I was 21 that time and of course, I have seen a lot of things and stopped being idealistic believing that I could save the world and make a huge difference, so I told my professor, that I just want to do acts of random kindness, it may not save a life but who knows, that random act of kindness might change someone's life. I remembered having  bad days and just because someone was nice to me or helped me, it made a difference and somehow I felt that I am not alone and that God is just there with me and he has sent someone to make me feel that no man is an island or some kind of shit like that.

        The beginning of this year was never kind to me and I have been depressed but I did bounce back. I have learned to be independent and selfless. I started to write down all my goals and started working and focusing on my self.

        I learned to be strong and fearless. Studying in UP, they have taught me that I have to have a stand on something and if I have a chance to stand by that, I have to fight for it or at least voice it out. I just did that and I may have lost a friend but it made me realize that true friends will get you and usually you have to make a decision where in you have to remove all the negative energy to make room for positive ones. I remembered most of my energy just go through hating a rude and ill-mannered person but now I just stop caring and my energy is going to things that are more productive for me. It doesn't even bother me to express my hatred to him because I just don't care. He can be mean and be evil, I know in time, he will get what he deserves and I will just let God or whatever take care of him.

        I am just so thankful right now because I felt that I am just so lucky. I received a bad news for this week and I was just praying for something to happened and when I just prayed really hard and left everything in God to take care of it, all of a sudden, a miracle just happened.

        To be honest, I am not really very diligent in going to church but I pray a lot. I may not be the person who usually kneels down and pray. I am actually less focused whenever I am praying in a very quiet area. I tend to think of my other troubles than speaking and praying to God. I usually pray during my idle time whenever my mind is just blank, like whenever I am commuting to work or having my rest day coffee. I know some religious people will think it's odd or whatever but I don't care, this is how I praise my God and the process that works for me.

        I have never been so grateful before. I am just really thankful that He is really taking care of me. I don't want to be weak so I am still thinking that eventually things will be taken away from me so I must not rest on my laurels, do the best that I can and whatever happens, I just have to be brave and strong.

        I hope my friends will just be as lucky as I am and also my family. I hope they continue to be safe and healthy. I know lately, I am just so disconnected with my family but I am just not very happy with them and having interactions with them will worsen everything so I decide to disconnect myself until I am feeling better and whatever negative thing that I am feeling right now goes away.

        I am grateful to have a complete family but of course, shit happens and sometimes, we are not very happy and we have to disconnect so that things will not worsen. When it comes to my friends, I may not have a lot of friends but I have friends that I can trust, there are people that I know, they are my real friends. I wish them the happiness that they deserve.

        For my former friends, I really don't really care. I don't wish you good, I don't wish you bad either. Losing me as a friend, you have lost all the benefits of having me as a friend, you have lost my willingness to protect your feelings and reputation and caring of whatever is happening to your life, you have lost me judging you. I know I am just a lucky bitch and I am not really a saint but I don't get my luck and good karma for doing bad things. People and God knows that I have nothing but good intentions and I may have lost you but for what its worth, I can definitely say that it's worth it. I have less stress and there is more positivity in my life, my life is not an like an episode of 'Is she really going out with him' anymore. I don't have to listen to your pathetic stories and I don't get updates anymore about the shit that guy say about that person making me feel bad vibes, life is just better.

        For that person, I hope that person can say the same thing. For all the things that she has lost, my friendship, the little ounce of respect that I had left for her, the chance for a good reputation and better relationship whatever, I hope he's worth it because if not and things don't work out, I don't know what will happen to her and what craziness she will do next. 

Self-preservation

Kanina nagsscan ako ng computer kasi baka me virus whatever. Naisip ko bigla na ang mahal para magpaupdate sa Windows 7 blah blah blah. Tpos sunod kong naisip na noong college kami meron kaming classmate, isa siyang self-preserver. Kapag me trabaho siyang hindi magagawa, kapag meron siyang class na hindi maattendan or meeting na hindi maattendan ang madalas niyang excuse ay yung computer niya kelangan niyang iupdate or whatever, I forgot the exact words for it. Maswerte siya kasi charming siya so me mga taga-gawa siya ng mga bagay na hindi niya magawa and people just forgives her for it pero siyempre ang pangunawa ng tao ay may hangganan at pasensya hanggang sa eventually narealize na lang ng mga tao na isa siyang self-preserver. Nobody told her or confronted her about it pero bad trip sila to work with her on a project kasi nga hindi siya reliable kakainin pa niya ang oras mo. Kaya ako, I'd rather work alone.

Wala naman talagang masama sa pagiging self-preserver, selfish ka lang at yun ang masama dun. Masama rin pati kung feeling mo oras at pahinga mo lang ang importante at ang hobbies and activities ng ibang tao ay hindi. Ano ba naman ang masama kung sabihin mong hindi ka aattend ng meeting kasi tinatamad ka or me iba kang ginagawa? Mas mabuti ng magsabing hindi ka makakapunta kesa yung paasa ka at kakainin mo ang 1-3 oras ko kakaantay sa yo di ka naman magpapakita. Pasalamat siya at hindi ako nagmasters at hindi nagkrus ang landas namin. Ngayong mas matanda na ako at me trabaho, ang aking oras at buhay ay 10 beses na ang importansya kumpara nung nag-aaral ako kasi syempre me schedule akong sinusundan para mameet ang deadline ko at meron akong active lifestyle kaya mababadtrip ako kung me isang tao ang hindi makikisama sa sched ko dahil wala siyang pakialam sa kinikita ko at sa nalolost kong money dahil sa selfishness niya. Ang oras ko nga ngayon ay parang mas importante na kumpara noon eh. Well, ganon talaga. Hahahahaha. Lalo pa ngayon na me plano na akong magnegosyo so very imprtante talaga ang bawat minuto sa akin.

Hmm, ako ba ay isang self-preserver? Hindi naman siguro kasi alam ko ang importansya ng oras kaya nga naiinis ako sa mga taong nalelate kapag meeting or what eh. I know minsan nalelate ako pero iniiwasan ko kasi nga ayokong gawin sa akin yon saka aaminin ko maiksi talaga ang pasensya ko sa pag-aantay lalo na kung hindi ko alam kung gano ako katagal mag-antay, ayos lang sa akin ang mag-antay pero bigyan mo ako ng oras kung 2 oras mo akong pag-aantayin para makapaggrocery pa ako o di kaya makapaggym, para at least me productive akong nagagawa kesa yung tunganga lang ako at nag-aantay na sana marealize ng kausap ko na importante ang buhay ko at hindi dapat inaaksaya sa makasariling tao.

Wala lang, kung asan man ang self-preserver na to sana maganda pa rin siya para patuloy siyang patawarin ng mga taong asa paligid niya at kung nagbago na siya at hindi na siya self-preserver, well, good for you at least this time, kung ano mang nakukuha mo sa buhay, you know that you deserve it.

Pretty Girl Rock

When people don’t love each other equally, the partner who gives less love and effort tend to do things that are just plain mean. The person who loves the other more tend to do things that are not worth it and they tend to rationalize the mistakes of other people. You know what’s the worst part of it? They sometimes tend to be a little bit delusional and they make up stupid stories for whatever reason. This is just another reason why I am not falling in love again. I don’t want to be a fool. I don’t want some guy playing me and treating me less than my worth. In fairness, to my last boyfriend, he put me in a pedestal and never did I feel like I have to do or put too much effort just for him to love and appreciate me. For all the girls out there, sometimes, it would be better to stop and assess the situation. It’s ok to be alone and single, what is not ok, is to be treated like a doormat.

Maidagdag lang, mas masaklap kung pati yung mga taong concerned sa yo eh kelangan niyang bastusin.

The Modern Royal Wedding

Mukhang uso kasing pag-usapan si Will and Kate. Haha.
I was able to watch the wedding nung break namin hanggang end of shift. Ang ganda ng gown ni cute. Never cared for the Beckhams, though. I love the hats. Grabe, isa yan sa mga reason why I would like to join the high society so that I get to wear crazy elegant hats without being Lady gaga or called crazy.
They are so cute and so adorable. Twice pa silang nagkiss paglabas nila. Kate is just so simple and elegant. I was watching the specials of some gossip shows about their wedding. Kwento nila, Kate was the one who fixed her hair and made her make-up. Ang cute noh, prinsesa-ish ka na and yet on your wedding day, you decide to do your own hair and make-up. Her gown, saktong sexy lang, sophisticated and regal. I mean, I love Princess

Diana but her wedding gown scared the hell out of me. Siguro 30 years ago, ganon ang uso but thank God, Kate didn't wear a poofy gown, she went for something timelessly classic and yet modernly regal. Sabi nila it was a reminiscent of someone popular's gown, just forgot her name. Ang cute pa nila when she walked down the aisle and si Prince William, nakatalikod lang pero si Harry nakita si Kate and he told his brother how beautiful Kate was or something basta. Ang cute pa nung paghand over kay Kate kay William, he jokingly said something like this is just supposed to be a small family affair. Haha. So cute, tapos nung asa carriage pa sila, Kate asked him if he is happy and words are just not needed anymore kasi sinasabi na ng mga mata niya kung gano siya kasaya ng panahong iyon. Ang cute pa kasi on their wedding day, makikita mong kinikilig sila, parang me romance pa rin.... hay. They were compared sa wedding ng parents ni William, na parang napaka rigid and formal nila pagsakay sa carriage habang sila Prince William, he even playfully held her hand habang asa carriage sila. Hehehehe. Ang cute pa kasi nagdrive pa si William after tapos parang napakacool nila and laidback compared sa mga royal british people. haha. I hope magtagal sila at wag ng maghiwalay. I hope to always see the loving sparks and kilig for each other na nakita ko.