The Little Mermaid

Lately, nakakapanood ako ng mga Korean dramas. Nakapanood ako ng ilang episodes ng my girlfriend is a gumiho saka Secret Garden. Parang common theme nila ang Little Mermaid at ang isang action school. Yung my Girlfriend is a Gumiho, hindi ko alam pero asa action school yung lalake, hindi ko masyadong nasundan kwento nito eh, sorry naman tapos yung Secret Garden, stunt woman kasi yung babae. Sa my girlfriend is a gumiho, nakita ng gumiho yung book na Little Mermaid tapos dun sa Secret Garden, parang feeling nila mala-Little Mermaid ang love story nila kasi from different worlds sila and they can never be together or something. So nacurious ako, parang ang dating kasi ang lungkot lungkot ng Little Mermaid, eh hindi ako sanay sa ganong kwento so nagresearch ako.

Lumaki kasi ako sa kwento ng Little Mermaid na Ariel ang kanyang pangalan at mejo snub yung mga sisters niya at nagkaroon siya ng happy ending pero eto pala ang totoo nitong kwento. Ang pangalan niya ay Sirennetta. Kapag nag15 ang sirena, dun lang pwedeng sumilip sa surface at pagkita niya, nakita niya ang prince. She fell in love with the prince. Nirescue niya nung lumubog ang barko kaso hindi siya nakita ng prince at feeling ng prince ang isang temple girl ang nagligtas sa kanya kasi yun yung nakita niya. Itong si Sirennetta, merong lola at sabi ng lola ang mga tao ay may paa at may soul unlike nila na nagiging sea foam na lang kapag nadedeads tapos itong Sirennetta, nagwish na magkaroon ng mga ganon at tinake advantage yun ng Sea Witch pero me kapalit, mawawalan siya ng voice tapos kelangan talagang mainlove itong prince na to para

maging permanent at hindi pa nagtatapos diyan, mamatay siya at magiging sea foam na lang siya pagdating ng following dawn after his marriage, ok lang daw sabi ng Sirennetta. hay, maling move! Ang hirap na kayang maghanap ng love ngayon tapos specific pa yung kanya, hay ewan.

So pumayag siya kahit na super torture ang every step niya. Hay, nagkita sila ng prince pagdating niya sa lupa pero dahil sa mute siya, wala kahit anong ganda ng boses niya, too bad, hindi niya magagamit para mainlove ang prince. Eto pa, kahit na super bait at lagi silang magkasama ng kumag na prinsipe na to eh, yung temple girl lang daw ang iniisip niya lagi kasi ito ang nagsave sa kanya, unfortunately, hindi niya masabi na siya yung nagsave sa prince dahil pipi na nga siya. So eto pa, pinilit ng daddy ni prince na ikasal siya sa ibang princess

sabi ni prince ayaw niya kasi gusto lang niyang pakasalan yung nagsave sa kanya at surprise! surprise! yung princess pala yung temple girl. She was being educated sa temple daw kaya siya asa temple. Hay. So dumating ang mga sisterrettes nitong si Sirennetta para iligtas siya sa nakaantabay na kamatayan.

Pagdating nila sabi kelangan lang patayin tong prince na to para mailigtas na siya sa mga unfortunate fate na naghihintay sa kanya. Wow ah, pinagpalit pa ng mga sisterrettes niya ang kanilang hair para lang mailigtas tong engot na si Sirennetta. Hindi siya pumayag na patayin yung prince, tinanggap na lang niyang mamatay. Naging fairies of the air naman siya so hindi naman siya bastang naglaho sa Earth at umaassist daw sila sa mga souls para makaakyat sa Heaven so makakapunta pa rin siya sa heaven. Kahit na hindi niya nakuha yung love ng

prince, dahil sa kamartyran niya at kabutihan, yun yung reward niya. Ang sad pa rin di ba, nagtiis siya ng sakit sa bawat step niya when she had feet tapos siya naman talaga ang mahal ng prince eh, hindi lang nabunyag sa prince na siya talaga ang babaeng yun. Nakakalungkot lang.

For the link of the real story of the real mermaid, here's the link: http://childhoodreading.com/?p=23

Sabi naman ng iba, happy ending pa rin. Ewan nabasa ko lang sa wikipedia, wala na akong masyadong pakialam sa sinabi ng mga critics after that, ang alam ko, I'm upset. hahahahaha.

Things that I learned about life... lately.

Well, ako ang taong laging galit. Galit ako sa buhay ko, galit ako sa lahat ng nanguunderestimate sa akin at galit din ako sa sarili ko at basta galit lang talaga ako. Gusto kong gumanti sa lahat ng kinagagalitan ko but then I realized that I just need to let go and everything just suddenly became lighter and parang mas madali na ang buhay ko. Medyo mahirap na proseso ang acceptance at letting go so ayun but at least I'm feeling better and at secure na ako ngayon at mataas na ang self-esteem ko at focused na ako sa lahat ng goals ko so I'm just glad.
Anyways, hindi naman talaga ang paglelet go ang natutunan ko pero kasi naisip ko na mag-stop maging angry at petty things at hayaan ko na lang ang buhay at ang mundo na mag-ayos ng buhay ko. I'm going to do my best sa buhay ko at bahala na. Ganito kasi yan, madalas naiinis ako sa mga tao sa mga simpleng bagay at narealize ko hindi naman dapat kasi nga strangers and random people lang naman sila so let go na lang at wag na lang akong mainis. Tapos me mga tao naman sa buhay ko na me intensyon talagang masama at minsan nakakagalit sila pero basta palagi ko na lang iniisip ang dharma.
Naniniwala kasi ako sa law ng Dharma at Karma. Dharma parang Natural laws and being moral, blah, blah, blah. Anyways, ganito kasi yan ung isang certain tao, mapaghiganti siya. Kahit na mas nakatatanda siya sa akin, kelangan niyang gumanti sa akin. Anyways, I never had the intention of hurting him, my intention was because I cared for my former friend but anyways, akala ko nung nag-uusap na kami, everything is okay na since lalake naman siya, at hindi naman uso sa lalake ang plastik at ang pumapatol sa babae but I was so wrong about him. Oh well, anyways, so nung talking terms na kami, kelangan niyang gumanti sa akin and he did but it backfired. I mean, it was a blessing in disguise, nagkaroon ako ng realization and now, I'm happy and satisfied about life. Hindi na ako restless at palakain at hindi na ako tinatamad magexercise, unlike before na basta, mahirap iexplain ang buong sitwasyon, mahabang kwento. Bottom line, this person na mapaghiganti, his plan did work out good for me instead of making me miserable.
And what happens when you are adharma (immoral)? Well, you're not blessed. He is immoral in many ways, bukod sa ginawa niya sa akin, he has also done things para lang wag malost ang kanyang posisyon at pagtawanan ng mga tao dahil napakayabang niya so natuklasan agad ang mga ginawa niya at syempre, ang career niya, hahahaha... epic fail. Tatawa na lang ako. I don't mean to gloat, I am not happy for his failure pero yan ang tinatawag na karma. Sabi ko sa inyo eh, stop being angry, let life and karma get those people who never mean well to you and always mean the best for those who want to hurt you. Sabi nga sa misa last Sunday, be meek and gentle, wag maging mapaghiganti at ipagdasal mo na lang sila.

Bridesmaid Hairstyles

Hmm, alam ko tapos na ang June at tapos na ang wedding month pero whatever. Nainspire lang ako kasi ikakasal si Anne(Eguia) sa December. Haha, walang connect. Naaliw lang ako sa motif nila na red-black. Si TL Dre din ikakasal din this year ata, I'm not sure pero she's into planning mode na. Ang theme naman nila ay blue-green. Whatever, dadating din ako diyan eventually. Natutuwa lang ako kasi weddings are also another way to dress up, syempre, alangan namang magdress up ka na parang me okasyon sa work, aasarin ka lang ng mga taong, asan ang prom? Hindi lang naman ang mga gowns and the bridesmaids' dress ang gusto ko about weddings, gusto ko rin yung mga hairstyle ng mga naattend, parang nagiging regal and ethereal yung mga tao. I remembered the last wedding that I attended, hindi ako nagmukhang regal and ethereal, ok lang yun, hindi naman talaga ako close sa kinasal, first time ko nga lang siyang nakita sa buhay ko. Taga-kain lang ako saka taga fill ng pwesto dun sa lugar kaya hindi ko nafeel ang need to dress up ng bonggang bongga. Just in case, me attendan akong wedding, I need your opinion kung alin ang pinakamagandang gawin sa buhok. Etong nasa baba ang mga nakita kong pics sa net na mejo natypean ko, please comment kung alin ang pinakamaganda.

 

Gusto ko yung mejo me curl-curl saka me headband parang mas madaling icarry kaso ang problema ko, kelangan kong makakita ng perfect headband saka masyado pa atang maiksi yung hair ko para kulotin.

Gusto ko rin ng messy ponytail look kaso baka pagkamalan akong mahangin lang sa labas at hindi nila magrasp yung idea na messy look talaga so ewan ko. Mahirap lang ipull off for someone like me ang mga ganyang look. Hahahahahahaha.

Gusto ko rin sana ng updo kaso baka sabihin ang OA ko naman, hindi naman ako yung ikakasal. Hahahahaha.

Yung ganitong half pony tapos curly ok din naman, parang sexy whatever lang. Hmmm, mejo wala rin akong maisip na negative about having this hairstyle except sa maiksi ang buhok ko kapag kinulot, kapag hindi ko naman kinulot baka sabihin nila, hindi man lang ako nageffort. Hay, ano ba yan!

Happy Fathers' day

There's nothing left to be said but 'Happy Fathers' Day!'
I love my daddy, my lolo at lahat ng daddy na kilala ko.
Hindi ko nga lang masyadong nadama ang Fathers' Day, kung bakit ay dahil parang mas celebrated ang Mothers' Day. Kahit celphone ko, mas celebrated ang Mothers' Day. Yung phone ko kasi me built-in settings yun kung saan nagbabago ng kusa yung wallpaper kapag me mga okasyon. For example, nung Christmas, naging winter wonderland siya. Buti na lang maunawain yung phone ko na wag magkaroon ng settings kapag Valentines. Hahahaha. Tapos nung May, every Sunday, kusang nagbabago yung settings kung saan me picture ng babae tapos heart heart, basta to imply Mothers' Day pero for June, last Sunday, nagkaroon ng

candies yung wallpaper ng phone ko. Tinanong ko nga yung friend kong tatay na kung ang mga candies ay pwedeng maging symbol ng Fathers' Day at tiningnan lang niya ako na parang nababaliw na ako.
Hay, ewan, tatawag nga ako sa LG para magreklamo na wla silang settings for Fathers' Day. hahahahaha. Hindi rin kami lumabas or anything ngayon at si Mama pa ang nagorder ng Lots-a-Pizza. Hahahahaha. Oh well, ganon talaga.
Sa lahat ng ama na nagbuild ng relationship with their kids, good job to you, bec let's be honest, marami ang nagkalat na tatay ngayon who never stood up to the plate kaya maraming kids na walang daddy or iba ang kinikilalang daddy or ang daddy na kinikilala nila ay ang taong tinatawag din nilang mommy.  Hay... peace out!

Magulong love life

Today, me naisip akong matindi. Minsan kelangan mong ireassess ang situation para mafeel mo na mahal ka talaga ng isang tao. Ganito kasi yan, me dalawa akong friend, si M saka si K. Si M yung girl, tapos si K yung guy. hahahahaha. Natawa lang ako. Si M kasi naniniwalang playboy tong si K dahil na rin sa nangyari ng kanilang relasyon. After ng break-up nila, hindi sila nag-usap hanggang sa nagbirthday si K which is 6 months after their break-up. Nagkaroon na sila ng kapatawaran non kasi me bf na rin naman na si M non kaso kaya pala nakipagbati tong si K kasi wala daw siya gf. Aww wrong timing, hindi sapat ang 6 na bwan para basta-basta lang ganon babalik si M kay K noh. Anyway, nagkabalikan din naman si K saka yung gf niya so hindi na sila pwede. Kahit na hindi na sila pwede, palagi pa rin silang nag-uusap at close sila kahit paano so close 

sila. For two years, friends lang sila although alam nilang me pagnanasa sila at care for each other. Me nangyari na hindi na lang sila nag-usap though... ayaw siyang iaccept sa fb ni K. Hahahahaha, baka dahil selosa ang gf, hindi ko alam so hanggang text na lang sila pero since me little tampuhan sila, hindi rin sila ganon kaclose although me feelings pa rin sila. Eventually nawalan na ng bf tong si M at nung nalulungkot siya, bigla siyang hinanap sa fb ni K at inaccept naman niya. Nagpplano silang to go out and catch up kaso ewan, tapos marami namang nice things na ginawa si K for M para mafeel niya na special siya, like singing for her, lagi pa niyang sinasabi na love niya si M, so feel na feel naman ni girlita pero ewan me gf pala tong si K na hindi niya kinwento ke M. So nahurt ang pride ni M. Hindi naman siya nadepress since me iba namang boylet sa paligid pero nakakainis lang. 

Eventually, kinonfront na ni M si K na bakit ganon, me gf ka pala, blah, blah, blah, blah. At ang K, sabi si M pa ang me kasalanan dahil umpisa palang sinabi na niya na me gf pa siya. Wow, sinungaling talaga at douchey pero alam ni M na me something talaga sa kanila kaya naman pinapatawad lang niya tong K na to kahit na parang tanga lang. Nagpapakaengot lang tong M na to at ang K huminto na sa kakasabi ng I love you dahil tablado siya ni M, eventually, naghiwalay daw sila ng gf niya sabi ni K at lungkot lungkutan ang gago. Nagkita sila ulit. Hindi naman sila nagkabalikan pero nung magkasama na sila. Nafeel lang ni M na parang totoo nga ang sinasabi ni K na mahal siya nito. 

Hindi ko alam kung bakit, hindi naman ako si M eh. Pero kasi eventually, nagawa na niyang puntahan si M kahit sobrang layo ng lugar ni M at hindi pa rin nagbabago si K, inuunawa pa rin niya ang kainitan ng ulo ni M. Sa lahat ng x ni M, si K kahit na parang parating galit, siya lang talaga ang pinakamahaba ang pasensya kay M. Kahit na mabilis mag-init ang ulo ni M, iniintindi niya na hindi dapat sabayan at palaging intindihin kasi alam naman niyang maalaga si M, wag lang bwisitin. Maasikaso rin naman si K at grabe niyang panggigilan si M.

Marespeto rin siya kasi alam niyang onting pda lang, di na niya mapipigil kaya hindi na lang niya masyadong hinahawakan si M pero grabe syang mag-alalay at super gentleman niya. Me pagkaengot kasi si M sa balancing ng sarili niya kaya kelangang alalayan minsan. 

Sa loob ng two years na nag-uusap lang sila, me mga panahong nagagalit lang si M kay K or may hindi sila pagakasunduan pero eventually si K, hindi natitiis tong si M. Si M naman kahit na laging matagal nag-aantay kay K at ayaw niyang nag-aantay, at lagi niyang sinasabi sa sarili niya na sisigawan ko to pag nakita ko pero tatawa na lang siya pag nakita niya si K, ang, cute daw kasi tapos nawawala na galit niya. After ng two years, nung nag-isip ulit si M, naisip niya na baka mahal nga sya nitong K na to at hindi yung sinasabi lang niya at tulad nga ng sabi ni K, magulo ang sitwasyon noon pero me mga soft evidence si M eh so ewan pwedeng nanggago lang din tong K. Sabi lang sa akin ni M, kahit walang masyadong nagbago, parang iba daw si K at ang pakikitungo niya, sabi ko, weh, baka namiss niyo lang ang isa't isa.... ayii!

Mukhang tanga tong dalawang to. Sa tingin ko me matindi silang feelings sa isa't isa at sa tingin ko, they care for each other and importante talaga sila kaso maraming factors ang dapat iconsider para sa isang relasyon to work. Andyan ang edad, na mas bata pa si K kay M at a significant level (haha), andyan ang layo nila sa isa't isa kaya hindi sila pwedeng magkita ng ganon ganon na lang. Andyan ang pera, syempre alangan namang si M lang lagi, di pwede yun noh at andyan ang prinsipyo nitong si M na hindi siya uulit ng bf. Oh well, if they're meant to be together, magiging sila din sa ngayon, manood na lang tayo ng masterchef australia. :)

Nothing to write about.

I really don't have anything to write about.
Lately, I'm just confused and lazy to do things that I'm used to do.
There are only two reasons why I'm acting like this; either I'm so depressed or I'm really, really, really happy that I'm just restless.
One thing, I know I am not depressed so probably I'm restless.
Why I'm restless... I don't want to talk about it.
I just feel like I wanted to sleep and procastinate but I know there are a lot of things for me to do.
I've been contented to what I have become and to my achievements these past three months and I just can't ruin things just because I am about to find a different kind of happiness.
I'll be honest, I was not very satisfied back then but at least I am not gambling or whatever.

Argh! I hate this.
I made a promise to myself starting this June 16, I am going to get my mojo back.
I am going to be focused and determined again.
I know I am being paranoid and crazy but at least I am fine.
I may not be fantastic but at least I am fine.
I prefer being fine rather than the depressed and just plain Mimi before.
Anyway, mukhang confused ang lahat kung ano nga ang sinasabi ko pero ang bottom line para lang akong tanga at engot at laging nag-iisip.
Siguro nga masyado lang akong nag-iisip kaya hindi ko magawa yung mga dati kong ginagawa, as in mga 2 days na akong hindi nagpupunta sa gym and yung last time ko pang pagpunta sa gym, kahit 30 minutes akong asa bicycle, hindi talaga ako pinagpawisan, masyado kasi akong stress at ang stress daw ay nakakasira sa pag-eexercise, parang less fat ang nabuburn.

Anyway, eto na lang ang gagawin ko, for today, I will do lahat ng kelangan kong gawin, yung mga record keeping ko, yung paggawa ko ng accessory at pagpapahinga, maliligo ako ng bongga.
Tomorrow, I will go to the gym, siguro mga 2 oras akong mageexercise tapos maggrogrocery ganon.
Saturday, chill lang at gym ulet. I need to calm myself kasi kapag ganitong lito ako, kain ako ng kain at shopping ako ng shopping, hay.
I am feeling so hyper kasi I don't want to face my issues.
Ayoko kasi ng nagiging masaya na parang me sapak lang kaya masyado akong tense lately.
Ano bang sinasabi ko?
Ewan, hindi ko rin exactly sure... basta.
I just need to chill and drink another cup of soy moccha frappucino grande. Hahahahaha!

Relaxation... Go on a rest-day getaway!

I know maulan na pero masaya pa ring umalis ng city and chill sa isang island resort. First went to Grande Island nung ako ay nasa college pa ako. Sabi ko babalik ako dito. I don't know if it's the nice and simple room, buffet, the pool or the other Chinese tourists kaya ako gusto kong bumalik dun. Anyway, Grande Island is in Subic. It's near Chiquita Island. When you get to Subic terminal, you have to ride a ferry. For the exact directions on how to get there, they have a website (www.grandeislandresort.com).
Everyone's friendly, pagdating mo, you're greeted by the dancing people and of course, guys that will help you out with your stuff and with the check-in. You can do a lot of things there, they have a Billiards Hall now, they also have wi-fi. They have beach volleyball, banana boat ride, kayak and snorkeling so you  will not be bored

and of course, they have a nice bar where you can spend rainy nights when you get bored in the evening's entertainment. You can also jog in the morning because the place is huge and perfect for nature lovers. They also have jetski and other stuff.
The price is nice. I felt that it's sulit. You have to visit the place and masaya siya talaga. Even if it's just an overnight stay, mafifeel mo pa ring sulit ang bayad mo. Anyways, got there na super late na kasi kasalanan ko na rin. Haha, nag-abot abot pa rin kami ng friends ko kahit mga 2 something na non, buti na lang mejo masama ang panahon kaya kelangang idelay ang trip ng ilang minutes kaya umabot pa ako. Pagdating dun, nagpahinga muna ng mga half an hour and at first wala sa mood ang lahat to do anything pero di ba ang saya-

sayang magswimming ng naulan???? After ng swimming, snacks and onting chill lang sa room hanggang sa meron palang billiards hall!!!! Yehey and then it's time for dinner na wala naman kaming reklamo dahil buffet naman tapos nakakaaliw ang mga nakanta. See, hindi naman kelangan laging mangokray ng mga host para maappreciate at magenjoy ang mga tao eh. Naisip naming magalit sa pera at magspend ng mga 1,000+ for isang glass ng cocktails before we realized na nagpuslit kami ng sariling inumin. Bawal kasing magdala ng inumin at sariling snacks dun eh. Haaaay, para nga naman dun ka bibili sa napakamahal nilang bilihan. Usap usap na lang kami sa patio sa likod ng room namin hanggang sa inaantok na lang kami at nagget ready to sleep pero narealize namin na ang paggeget ready to sleep ay nakakawala ng antok at nanood ng tv hanggang
sa makatulog. Maaga akong nagigising pag hindi ko bahay so naisip ko munang maglakad, baduy kasi ako and after half an hour, ginising ko sila for breakfast. After breakfast, we decided to swim ulet kahit naulan pa rin. We're about to leave in 2 hours, naulan pa rin at kahit ganon, hindi ko madedeny that I did enjoy my stay. :)

Unborn Child Law and Divorce in the Philippines

Nung isang gabi, I get to watch the news kasi wala akong pasok and I was finishing something kaya naka-on lang yung TV. Pinag-uusapan nila yung Unborn Child Law, which is connected sa RH Bill, kasi nga naman plano nila na magmulta sa lahat ng nagbebenta ng contraceptives na walang reseta ng 100,000 pesos. Sabi kasi nila, pwede daw maging abortificient ang mga ito. Napanood ko pa si Ralph Recto sabi niya dapat linawin daw kung ano ang abortificient, as in my definition para mas maayos nila yung RH Bill, kasi nga naman ang RH Bill, although sinasabi nila na pro-abortion ito, which is not, it is more pro-chance nga eh at I know, Philippines ang isa sa mga country na super nagpapahalaga ng human rights kaya ang ultimong hindi pa naipapanganak ay nais nilang maprotektahan kaya kahit ang RH Bill, whatever those anti-RH Bill say, is also trying to protect even the unborn. Anyway, not going to talk about the RH Bill, bahala na kayo diyan basta magpupurple na lang ako. Hay, sana lang magkasundo na sila at maayos nila tong mga batas na to para masaya lahat. Next issue, divorce. Wah, kapag ang Malta daw nagkadivorce na Philippines at Vatican City na lang ang walang divorce. Ok nga yun eh, at least ang old-fashion pa rin natin. So what kung mataas ang annulment cases sa bansa natin, it just shows us more that we are not yet ready to have divorce kasi nga pano kung magkadivorce eh di ganon ganon na lang, porke hindi na magkasundo, ayawan na, eh di mas lalong dadami ang magulong pamilya at kaawa-awang mga bata. At least ngayon, ung mga kumakabit dahil napatol sa mga 'separated' na lalake eh pwede pa nating husgahan. Hahahah, joke lang. Kasi isipin niyo ah, ngayon pa lang wala pang divorce, annulment na ang solusyon ng mga taong maagang pumasok sa pag-aasawa at narealize na hindi pala nila keri yung napangasawa nila tapos me mga anak sila, tapos ang gulo-gulo ng set-up kasi nga naisip nilang magpannul na lang at magkagulo pero during the annulment process, me mga kaulayaw na ibang tao ang both parties which makes the life of their kids na mas magulo, hindi lang naiisip ng mga magulang. Pano pa kaya pag me divorce na eh di pakasal na lang tayo ng pakasal tapos onting hindi lang magkasundo, sabihin na lang irreconcilable differences tapos divorce tapos hanap ng ibang ulam tapos kasal ulet pag nagsawa ganon ganon na lang, di ba, parang tanga lang??? hindi niyo na iniisip ang mga bata na bunga ng mga hilaw na pagmamahalan na nauwi sa annulment... tsk, tsk, tsk, tsk.

Relaxation... Mimi-style

There's nothing really special about me so my ways of chilling out and relaxation is pretty much the same as everybody else's. I usually get a massage, have my rest day coffee just to unwind, watch a movie and meditate(?!). I realized since I like getting massages and going to places just to relax, I will start dedicating my blog entries to relaxation... hehe, since writing is also one way for me to remove the stress.
Anyway, this week is Memorial week so my rest day is split-off, Monday-Thursday. Monday, I just slept... for me, sleeping is not actually relaxing, it's a requirement for the day ahead plus sometimes you just end up sleeping even if you're super stressed out and restless because it is your body's requirement.. amf. I woke up and my sister and I watched The Roommate.

Initially, I was only interested in watching that movie because of Leighton Meester and because it's a thriller movie. Being an avid fan of Gossip Girl and horror movies, I felt that this movie is just the perfect mix. Hahahaha. It's the story of a girl who has gone obsessed with her roommate and end up eliminating those whom she feels like has a negative effect on her roommate. It's not a very good movie, good thing, they decided to put beautiful people in the cast, even the extras and the old people there look good and the chemistry of each and every cast member was not compromised so kudos for the casting boo for the storyline and for killing the kitten. Perfect movie if you are sick and tired of watching movies that you have seen at least 5 times in your life. (I really love watching zombie movies but I've seen dawn of the dead more than 10 times already, land of the dead and  shaun of the dead more than 5 times and other zombie movies at least 3 times... I need a break from those even if it's a terrible movie that I have to watch).
It's not that bad but it's really not good either. Hahahaha. The only thing that I like about it is the fact that none of the major characters died except for the crazy person. Ha! Spoiler alert! Spoiler alert! (and it's too late.... hahahaha) and Rebecca's convertible, (aww, so jealous!). The things that I didn't like about the movie is the lack of details, I mean ok, Emily died when Sara was nine but from what and what's really in Rebecca's past that drove her crazy, just the fact that she's a rich girl without friends so she just ends up trying to make one and if she can't, she does crazy things? Whatever. Meester is really a good actress although her character is not so far from Blair Waldorf in Gossip Girl, she's spoiled and rich and manipulative only less crazy and more independent. I know she's a natural blonde but I really prefer having her as a brunette.

Elevator conversations

9 floors yung building namin pero kasi me kashare kaming ibang company sa building namin at grabe, kahit 2nd floor lang ineelevator pa nila na kahit mas matagal pa yung pag-aantay nila kesa sa pagsakay nila eh talagang tinatiyagan nila. Grabe, kaya napakaraming matataba at malalaki ang ass dun eh, hindi kasi marunong maglakad. Hay naku.

Anyway, inorasan ko na ang pagbaba kasi seryoso humihinto sa 2nd floor, 3rd floor at 4th floor yung elevator at umaabot ng 3 minutes ang elevator. Hay nakow at dahil dun marami akong naririnig na usapan ng mga taong nakasakay dun.

One time, syempre yung bwisit ng mga tao sa mga taga-2nd 3rd and 4th floor. I mean, alam naman nilang may sapak yung mga elevator sa amin na nasstuck yung mga tao pero wala, kahit na puno, pupunuin pa rin nila eh alam naman nilang sobrang laki at taba nila! OMG. One day, I hope, mastuck sila sa elevator at malate para matrauma naman sa pageelevator.

Me narinig pa akong kwentuhan ng dalawang lalake tungkol sa mga babae na narealize ng isang lalake na yung girl niya ay panget pala kapag walang make-up. I don't think the girl that they were talking about is not his girlfriend kasi kung pag-usapan at laitin nila eh mukhang FUBU lang niya or whatever yung girl. Sabi kasi ng kausap niya ayos lang yun pare, madilim naman kapag nag-aano kayo eh or gusto mo takpan mo na lang yung mukha ng kumot.

Isa pa sa mga kwentong naririnig ko sa elevator eh tungkol sa isang babae. Pinag-uusapan ng dalawang babae ang isang babae nila friend na nagpapakatanga sa isang lalake. Ang kwento nila eh ginagawa na ng girl lahat para sa panget niyang boyfriend pero wala pa rin at mukha na talagang tanga yung friend. Nangiti na lang ako sa elevator because the story was so familiar and at least this time, hindi na ako ang CONCERNED friend na nasisira ang araw dahil sa isang WALANG KWENTANG lalake.

May isa pang buong team ang pumasok sa elevator at narinig ko ang kwento nila tungkol sa isa nilang team mate na tinatawag nilang baliw. Itong baliw nilang team mate magaling naman sa stats and whatever kaya kapag nagsumbong daw sa TL eh malamang mas kakampihan pa yung baliw kahit na mas close sila sa TL nila. Hay, wala naman akong nasabi dun. Mejo kilala ko yung team na yun and if you're going to ask me, yung tao na nagsasalita sa elevator eh parang mas baliw pa sa whoever they were talking about. Hahahaha, just never like her face kasi pati eh and her negative vibes. :))

I know chismosa ako. Haha, ganyan talaga kung wala kang masyadong kasama at iniisip na naabsorb mo na lang ang pinag-uusapan ng ibang tao. In fairness, nagkaroon ako ng mga realization habang nakasakay ako sa elevator.

Actually, hindi naman marami ang naging realization ko, ang pinakamatindi kong naging realization ay mean talaga ang mga babae. I mean, imagine, laitin ba ang babae about not putting on any make-up and takpan na lang ang mukha with a kumot??? Haler, hindi siya super gwapo, ako hindi lang kumot ang itatakip ko sa kanya, pati yung kurtina saka yung pambalot ng kama saka comforter saka yung shower curtain ng banyo. Argh! tapos yung babaeng martyr, sige lang. Pakamartyr lang siya, nakakababa siya sa aming mga babae, wish her all the best though pero hopefully, one day sana makameet ng guy yun na mabuti at somebody she deserves.

Lucky and Grateful; Acts of Random Kindness; Family and Former Friends

        When you are a good person, you are being rewarded. I am just so happy right now. I am living a life where in I am just nice to people although there will be occasional bitchiness, I believe in Karma and to random acts of kindness. I remember in 2009, we were asked by our professor, Ms. Jacinto, what our New Year's resolution was. I told them that since I failed a year ago about my New Year's resolution which is to lose 10 lbs, I will just be getting a New Year's resolution that will benefit not just me but the whole world, if possible.

        I was 21 that time and of course, I have seen a lot of things and stopped being idealistic believing that I could save the world and make a huge difference, so I told my professor, that I just want to do acts of random kindness, it may not save a life but who knows, that random act of kindness might change someone's life. I remembered having  bad days and just because someone was nice to me or helped me, it made a difference and somehow I felt that I am not alone and that God is just there with me and he has sent someone to make me feel that no man is an island or some kind of shit like that.

        The beginning of this year was never kind to me and I have been depressed but I did bounce back. I have learned to be independent and selfless. I started to write down all my goals and started working and focusing on my self.

        I learned to be strong and fearless. Studying in UP, they have taught me that I have to have a stand on something and if I have a chance to stand by that, I have to fight for it or at least voice it out. I just did that and I may have lost a friend but it made me realize that true friends will get you and usually you have to make a decision where in you have to remove all the negative energy to make room for positive ones. I remembered most of my energy just go through hating a rude and ill-mannered person but now I just stop caring and my energy is going to things that are more productive for me. It doesn't even bother me to express my hatred to him because I just don't care. He can be mean and be evil, I know in time, he will get what he deserves and I will just let God or whatever take care of him.

        I am just so thankful right now because I felt that I am just so lucky. I received a bad news for this week and I was just praying for something to happened and when I just prayed really hard and left everything in God to take care of it, all of a sudden, a miracle just happened.

        To be honest, I am not really very diligent in going to church but I pray a lot. I may not be the person who usually kneels down and pray. I am actually less focused whenever I am praying in a very quiet area. I tend to think of my other troubles than speaking and praying to God. I usually pray during my idle time whenever my mind is just blank, like whenever I am commuting to work or having my rest day coffee. I know some religious people will think it's odd or whatever but I don't care, this is how I praise my God and the process that works for me.

        I have never been so grateful before. I am just really thankful that He is really taking care of me. I don't want to be weak so I am still thinking that eventually things will be taken away from me so I must not rest on my laurels, do the best that I can and whatever happens, I just have to be brave and strong.

        I hope my friends will just be as lucky as I am and also my family. I hope they continue to be safe and healthy. I know lately, I am just so disconnected with my family but I am just not very happy with them and having interactions with them will worsen everything so I decide to disconnect myself until I am feeling better and whatever negative thing that I am feeling right now goes away.

        I am grateful to have a complete family but of course, shit happens and sometimes, we are not very happy and we have to disconnect so that things will not worsen. When it comes to my friends, I may not have a lot of friends but I have friends that I can trust, there are people that I know, they are my real friends. I wish them the happiness that they deserve.

        For my former friends, I really don't really care. I don't wish you good, I don't wish you bad either. Losing me as a friend, you have lost all the benefits of having me as a friend, you have lost my willingness to protect your feelings and reputation and caring of whatever is happening to your life, you have lost me judging you. I know I am just a lucky bitch and I am not really a saint but I don't get my luck and good karma for doing bad things. People and God knows that I have nothing but good intentions and I may have lost you but for what its worth, I can definitely say that it's worth it. I have less stress and there is more positivity in my life, my life is not an like an episode of 'Is she really going out with him' anymore. I don't have to listen to your pathetic stories and I don't get updates anymore about the shit that guy say about that person making me feel bad vibes, life is just better.

        For that person, I hope that person can say the same thing. For all the things that she has lost, my friendship, the little ounce of respect that I had left for her, the chance for a good reputation and better relationship whatever, I hope he's worth it because if not and things don't work out, I don't know what will happen to her and what craziness she will do next. 

Self-preservation

Kanina nagsscan ako ng computer kasi baka me virus whatever. Naisip ko bigla na ang mahal para magpaupdate sa Windows 7 blah blah blah. Tpos sunod kong naisip na noong college kami meron kaming classmate, isa siyang self-preserver. Kapag me trabaho siyang hindi magagawa, kapag meron siyang class na hindi maattendan or meeting na hindi maattendan ang madalas niyang excuse ay yung computer niya kelangan niyang iupdate or whatever, I forgot the exact words for it. Maswerte siya kasi charming siya so me mga taga-gawa siya ng mga bagay na hindi niya magawa and people just forgives her for it pero siyempre ang pangunawa ng tao ay may hangganan at pasensya hanggang sa eventually narealize na lang ng mga tao na isa siyang self-preserver. Nobody told her or confronted her about it pero bad trip sila to work with her on a project kasi nga hindi siya reliable kakainin pa niya ang oras mo. Kaya ako, I'd rather work alone.

Wala naman talagang masama sa pagiging self-preserver, selfish ka lang at yun ang masama dun. Masama rin pati kung feeling mo oras at pahinga mo lang ang importante at ang hobbies and activities ng ibang tao ay hindi. Ano ba naman ang masama kung sabihin mong hindi ka aattend ng meeting kasi tinatamad ka or me iba kang ginagawa? Mas mabuti ng magsabing hindi ka makakapunta kesa yung paasa ka at kakainin mo ang 1-3 oras ko kakaantay sa yo di ka naman magpapakita. Pasalamat siya at hindi ako nagmasters at hindi nagkrus ang landas namin. Ngayong mas matanda na ako at me trabaho, ang aking oras at buhay ay 10 beses na ang importansya kumpara nung nag-aaral ako kasi syempre me schedule akong sinusundan para mameet ang deadline ko at meron akong active lifestyle kaya mababadtrip ako kung me isang tao ang hindi makikisama sa sched ko dahil wala siyang pakialam sa kinikita ko at sa nalolost kong money dahil sa selfishness niya. Ang oras ko nga ngayon ay parang mas importante na kumpara noon eh. Well, ganon talaga. Hahahahaha. Lalo pa ngayon na me plano na akong magnegosyo so very imprtante talaga ang bawat minuto sa akin.

Hmm, ako ba ay isang self-preserver? Hindi naman siguro kasi alam ko ang importansya ng oras kaya nga naiinis ako sa mga taong nalelate kapag meeting or what eh. I know minsan nalelate ako pero iniiwasan ko kasi nga ayokong gawin sa akin yon saka aaminin ko maiksi talaga ang pasensya ko sa pag-aantay lalo na kung hindi ko alam kung gano ako katagal mag-antay, ayos lang sa akin ang mag-antay pero bigyan mo ako ng oras kung 2 oras mo akong pag-aantayin para makapaggrocery pa ako o di kaya makapaggym, para at least me productive akong nagagawa kesa yung tunganga lang ako at nag-aantay na sana marealize ng kausap ko na importante ang buhay ko at hindi dapat inaaksaya sa makasariling tao.

Wala lang, kung asan man ang self-preserver na to sana maganda pa rin siya para patuloy siyang patawarin ng mga taong asa paligid niya at kung nagbago na siya at hindi na siya self-preserver, well, good for you at least this time, kung ano mang nakukuha mo sa buhay, you know that you deserve it.

Pretty Girl Rock

When people don’t love each other equally, the partner who gives less love and effort tend to do things that are just plain mean. The person who loves the other more tend to do things that are not worth it and they tend to rationalize the mistakes of other people. You know what’s the worst part of it? They sometimes tend to be a little bit delusional and they make up stupid stories for whatever reason. This is just another reason why I am not falling in love again. I don’t want to be a fool. I don’t want some guy playing me and treating me less than my worth. In fairness, to my last boyfriend, he put me in a pedestal and never did I feel like I have to do or put too much effort just for him to love and appreciate me. For all the girls out there, sometimes, it would be better to stop and assess the situation. It’s ok to be alone and single, what is not ok, is to be treated like a doormat.

Maidagdag lang, mas masaklap kung pati yung mga taong concerned sa yo eh kelangan niyang bastusin.

The Modern Royal Wedding

Mukhang uso kasing pag-usapan si Will and Kate. Haha.
I was able to watch the wedding nung break namin hanggang end of shift. Ang ganda ng gown ni cute. Never cared for the Beckhams, though. I love the hats. Grabe, isa yan sa mga reason why I would like to join the high society so that I get to wear crazy elegant hats without being Lady gaga or called crazy.
They are so cute and so adorable. Twice pa silang nagkiss paglabas nila. Kate is just so simple and elegant. I was watching the specials of some gossip shows about their wedding. Kwento nila, Kate was the one who fixed her hair and made her make-up. Ang cute noh, prinsesa-ish ka na and yet on your wedding day, you decide to do your own hair and make-up. Her gown, saktong sexy lang, sophisticated and regal. I mean, I love Princess

Diana but her wedding gown scared the hell out of me. Siguro 30 years ago, ganon ang uso but thank God, Kate didn't wear a poofy gown, she went for something timelessly classic and yet modernly regal. Sabi nila it was a reminiscent of someone popular's gown, just forgot her name. Ang cute pa nila when she walked down the aisle and si Prince William, nakatalikod lang pero si Harry nakita si Kate and he told his brother how beautiful Kate was or something basta. Ang cute pa nung paghand over kay Kate kay William, he jokingly said something like this is just supposed to be a small family affair. Haha. So cute, tapos nung asa carriage pa sila, Kate asked him if he is happy and words are just not needed anymore kasi sinasabi na ng mga mata niya kung gano siya kasaya ng panahong iyon. Ang cute pa kasi on their wedding day, makikita mong kinikilig sila, parang me romance pa rin.... hay. They were compared sa wedding ng parents ni William, na parang napaka rigid and formal nila pagsakay sa carriage habang sila Prince William, he even playfully held her hand habang asa carriage sila. Hehehehe. Ang cute pa kasi nagdrive pa si William after tapos parang napakacool nila and laidback compared sa mga royal british people. haha. I hope magtagal sila at wag ng maghiwalay. I hope to always see the loving sparks and kilig for each other na nakita ko.

How to live a happy life

Lately, I have lived a life of discontent and I have been thinking of ways or philosphy to live a happy life and you know what I have learned, not setting up the bar high in life doesn't work nor risking everything to go for something that does not have assurance and end up being hurt eventually will just make you bitter and stupid. Living a very cautious life is not the best option either and living a worry-free life will just make you laidback and high risk and have a lower mortality compared to the careful ones, so what exactly will make us live a happy life. Saying living life to the fullest is vague and cliche and can be misinterpreted to make stupid choices because oppurtunity doesn't knock everyday or something and eventually regretting our stupid choices.
To be honest, I do not know either. I think acceptance is the key. Acceptance that life is not perfect but we have the power to make a choice that we are going to be happy. In my situation, I just try to do the little things to make me happy. For example, I exercise to get those endorphines pumping in and making me just a cheerful person, I smile and greet people. I am courteous and I am just generally nice even to strangers. You know what they say, smile and the world will smile with you.
I know, you are just thinking that nothing bad is happening to me so far that's why I seem to be cheerful lately but honestly, I am not triumphant and successful in all aspect of my life but here's the thing, I told myself already that my life has a very high rate to be unfortunate so always expect the worse but not be a pessimist, meaning just be prepared and be ready to give yourself the support and the strength that you will need when the time comes.
As my friend, Kahren told me once that I just chose to be happy because I was asking her why I am genuinely happy for someone when most people are thinking that I should be sad or not happy at all for that person. Kahren is right, being happy is a choice. If you also want to be happy of course, you don't choose choices that will complicate your life. I am not saying not to risk anything but if you initially knew that something will not last, why risk your reputation and happiness, when you already knew that you will get hurt in the end? That is just masochism and stupid and I am tired of getting hurt and living a life full of depression and imperfection.
How to live a happy life? Make good choices, have an adventure, be prepared with the worst, do your best to be happy and just be nice and eventually you will be rewarded.

The Right Time

When is the right time to fall in love again? Is it after the painful separation or after some time?
Para sa akin, kelangan after some time kasi kapag right after baka naman maging rebound lang kayo ng isa't isa eh pero mukhang wala rin namang masamang maging rebound kasi kapag naging rebound ka ng isang tao, pwedeng super maattched na siya sa yo kasi nga nahurt na sila pero ang masama rin sa pagiging rebound ay syempre, me puwang pa rin sa puso nila yung original nilang mahal, replacement ka lang.
Ang problema naman sa after some time eh baka me mga napalagpas ka ng mga taong pwede ka sanang mahalin, pinagantay mo lang ng matagal kaya nagsawa na sila sa kakaantay, ang arte mo kasi. Hahahaha. Sa tingin ko, wala rin yun sa timing eh, nasa tao yun. I mean, kung yung taong papalit at muling paiibigin ka ulet ay ang taong destiny mo na or nakatakdang mahalin maging siya man ang the one or hindi, eventually mamahalin mo rin siya. Kasi me nagsabi sa akin nung isang araw, hindi naman sa hindi ka ready noon, sadyang pagdating sa kanya, ready ka na. hahahaha, at first, hindi ko naintindihan pero parang ang point ng nagsabi non, kahit noong January pa dumating ang taong ito, kahit anong arte ko sa ayoko ng masaktan BS and all that tatanggapin ko pa rin siya.

Crazy for James Younghusband

Today, I'm on PTO or leave whatever. I had a lot of things to do pero syempre natulog lang ako buong umaga since I was also nursing a headache. After errands that I had to run, gising pa rin ako and wala akong magawa so nakinig na lang ako sa Lazy Song ni Bruno Mars and sa music ni Lenka. Tawang tawa talaga ako dun sa mga unggoy sa video ni Bruno Mars. Anyways, nagsearch na rin ako ng mga pictures ni James Younghusband. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, para happy ako lagi iisipin ko na lang sya ang jowa ko... haha at busy kami sa aming career kaya hindi kami nagkikita. Hahahaha. For two days, it has been working, mas disciplined ako sa diet ko, syempre kung ito boyfriend ko kelangan talaga sexy ako noh. Basta he inspires me and he has a good effect on me so tuloy ko lang tong kalokohan ko.

I remembered the first time that I saw him.... sa billboard sa my SLEX.... Ito yung exact picture, I think for Hanford yan. Since hindi ako ngfocus sa product, hindi rin ako msyadong sure. Hehe. Asa college palang ako nun, last year ko na sa college yun eh. Haaay... tapos sumali si Phil sa Celebrity Duets, naexcite pa nga ako nung narinig ko na Younghusband eh kasi I read them from a magazine and narealize ko na magkapatid nga pala yung Younghusband so me possibility na hindi si James yung kasali sa Celebrity Duets at hindi nga siya, si Phil kaya I didn't bother. Since model siya at hindi naman ako makapanood ng mga fashion shows na involve siya, akala ko hindi ko na siya makikita ever pero ang ganitong lalake, hindi mo maiignore eh. Bigla silang sumikat gawa ng Azkals or the other way around, whatever, ang importante sa akin, nakikita ko na siya ng mas madalas. Natuwa pa ako na malapit lang pala siya, I mean taga-Alabang lang ako eh at lagi pang me sighting yung friend ko ng brother niyang si Phil sa ATC.
Naexcite lang ako sa article na to na nabasa ko sa net. Naisip ko bigla, has he met me already, bakit parang dinescribe niya ako? Go to this article to know what I'm talking about http://www.cosmo.ph/hot-hunks/male-celebrity-spotlight/10-things-james-younghusband-loves-about-filipinas/
So sa mga taong marami ng utang sa akin na gift, pwede na sa akin yung CD ni Lenka saka si James Younghusband, I know 5 months pa ang birthday ko pero paghandaan niyo na!

What a wonderful world.

It is human to never be contented. When we get something that we want, we realized that we want something more and we never stop wanting more. Within the past years, I have realized to lower my expectations in life therefore, not being hurt so much since I am not so disappointed in life that I have ended living a life with seemingly no goals and aspirations. In reality, I have a goal and that is to be successful, it's just that it's not as detailed, it's just as simple as this... my goal in life is to be successful, I haven't been able to actually define how or what successful means in my life. I am just so young and I am still not so sure what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. All I know is that for this time, I want to earn money and grab the oppurtunity of increasing my pay or whatever. I will pay my debts and bills and try to save up.

Sometimes, people are just so caught up of being successful and achieving their goals, it's not like, something's bad about it, it's just sometimes or rather, most of the time, we tend to forget what's really important and we forget to be thankful of the simple things. We just see all the bad things around us and we forget to be thankful about things. Lately, I am just so caught up on stressing myself about some family and work issues that I forgot to take care of myself. I wasn't getting the medical attention that I needed until something happened today. When it comes to my health, because of my lifestyle that I just don't care about life as much as other people do, I tend to forget taking care of myself and end up living a really awful lifestyle.

I woke up this morning with a lot of pain and I am just not feeling great. It hit me that something is not right about my body and I might be in danger. Death, as usual, has stopped scaring me but I just realized that even though I am not very excited with my life, I should not go down like this because I am special and this is a wonderful world. Despite all the natural calamities that has been happening, I still think that there's something to be thankful. Every day, I get to wake up and get another chance in life and to correct my mistakes. I get to spend time with people that I care about and people that I am so fond of.

I am not very happy maybe because I am not really sure of what's happening but I promise that by Monday, I am going to get medical attention that I need and I will stop abusing myself and just be more positive with life since people who are more optimistic with life live longer.    

Career over everything else

Sometimes I just don't know what will make me happy. Most of the time,  money makes me happy... sometimes, it's as simple as that. Money never failed to make me happy and compared to other things, mas mababa ang collateral damage when it comes to money. I mean, minsan kasi kapag ang happiness mo ay nakadepende sa isang tao, that person also has the power of making you sad and depressed. Pero kapag pera at least kapag nawala yun, you just have to work hard so that you can get more money again and minsan pagod lang naman ang kapalit ang pwede ka namang magpahinga tuwing weekend or something, me bakasyon naman, dun ka na lang magpahinga.Ayoko lang ng nasasaktan or what, masyadong mahirap bumangon kasi kapag nalungkot ka at nawala ka na sa focus or whatever. From now on, I am going to choose career and focus on it para mas marami akong magawa para marami akong pera and I don't have to depend on somebody just to make me happy. Shoes, dresses and accessories make me happy and I'm all set and I'll be able to obtain them kapag marami akong moolah.

Tatanggapin ko na lan na malas at wala akong happy ending

Before, I always question my purpose on this earth and why it seems like sh*t happens to me and now I know the answer, I am the person who is to experience pain and suffering, loss, failure, lahat na ng negatibo. I will still smile, be loopy and crazy kasi if hindi baka I just end up killing myself dahil hindi ko na keri. Basta gumising na lang ako isang araw at sinabi kong suko na ako sa pagpursue sa aking happiness, from now on, to be happier and more contented with life, I will lower my expectations from life. Hindi ko na sasabihing, this is going to be a wonderful day kasi kapag hindi yun nangyayari, nadedepress lang ako at ewan. Sasabihin ko na lang lagi na this is going to be the same as every other day para me mangyari mang depressing, sasabihin ko, kaya mo 'yan, masanay ka na, lagi ka namang nagsstruggle di ba? Kapag me mangyaring masaya, pasalamat sa Diyos, naalala pa niyang tao ka at minsan kelangan mo ng sprinkle ng happiness. Ok na yung ganitong buhay sa akin, at least, me mga goals man ako, iniisip ko na lang na I will work hard to reach it, makuha ko man o hindi, bahala na. Gusto ko lang ng me ginagawa hanggang sa dumating yung point na deads na ako. Napakapositive ba?

Things that made me hate life less.

We hate our lives, yeah... I hate my life even until now but I know that I have to hold on and be happy in the meantime but sometimes, it's just hard to find that something that will make life more bearable but at least I manage to find this things and people.
1. April Boy's song with his son JC. The song has a message where in he does not want to fall in love in the mean time because of the pain that he has experience. During my depressed periods, this song, though sad, actually makes me laugh after singing it at the top of my lungs. It kinds of sum up everything that I felt.
2. A desperate girl for love. I don't want to mention her name but her story of relationship or should I say pseudorelationship are just really sad that being single makes me thankful. She ends up looking for romantic potentials in the office and they end up not liking her although she is pa-sweet and whatever. I even said to one of my friends that for some reason, she's not ugly, there's just something in her that will never make me woo her if I were a guy and guess what, two more guys said it.
3. This another really sad girl. She had the worst in life and I just don't want to comment or discuss her. She is the most pathetic person that I've met. Her career and personal life is a mess. I don't want to go into details because people will easily know her, anyway, she is the one who brought it to herself so whatever. Every time I see her, I am glad to wake up as me and the best part of it, she is not skinny!
4. The accent of Xiao Chen. She tries to speak English and it's just funny. I am not saying that she's silly or what, she's just so adorable and it brightens up my day.
5. Frozen yogurt with blueberry. I don't know but it has a weird effect on me.
6. Breakfast at Seattles. I just like sitting at the rattan chairs with cushions before going to the gym.
7. Work. I tend to forget how my personal life sucks and I just focus on the metrics that I have to maintain.
8. Luckies. It makes me feel that I'm lucky and as I usually say it... yosi is happiness.

Summer na naman...

I have to make plans na. Gusto kong magisang pumunta somewhere. Ok lang ang beach basta out of town. Gusto kong pumuntang tagaytay siguro or whatever. Hehe. Self searching ba. Nauso na naman ang term na to. Naeenjoy ko kasi ang ganitong buhay na ginagawa ko lang ang gusto kong gawin. Walang nagrerestrain s akin. Masaya pa ako na i lost the wanting the approval of my parents. Gusto ko lang ng fine relationship with them, if they make fun of my job or something, sila na basta ako masya na ako sa ginagawa ko. At the end of april, me 4 days akong off, im planning n magpaspa, magworkout ng bongga, explore a new locale, matulog the whole day. Hehe.

Things na babaguhin ko for this March

Can I trust you with my heart?... Adobo?

Lately, I realized that I only eat two types of food. One is adobo and the other is spaghetti with Chicken. I know I have to change my diet style. Anyway, my third type pa pala ako ng kinakain, yun ay hotdog, hehe. Ayun, for the past week, ganito ang kain ko. I swear/promise na hindi na ganito ang magiging eating habits ko for the next 8 days. Magbabaon na ako starting Sunday shift. Kakain ako lagi na lang sa bahay para makatipid, lalo pa ngayon na kelangan ko ngang magtipid! Whoa! So kung me babaguhin ako for this month, yun ay ang dadamihan ko ang frequency ng paghuhugas ko ng mukha at I will eat healthier food choices. Bukod pa diyan,I'm going to make sure na magfofocus ako sa aking art at sa aking independency. Tanggap ko ng ako ang magiging cool aunt ng mga future babies ng aking mga friends/family. Ako yung aunt na wala ng family and kids pero me cool na kotse at kung saan saan napupunta at kung anu-ano ang hobbies and activities. Gosh, if ever magkajowa ulet ako baka matawa ako sa blog kong to pero sa future boyfriend ko, sinasabi ko na ayoko ng babies, pero kung 28 na ako, irerethink ko yung life ko, so check on me after N years, okies??? So kung me alam kayong kung sino who showcases amateur painters, please give me a call or leave a message and I'll get back to you. You can email me at mimitamaldita@gmail.com. 

Done with the pain and it's crunch time

Lately, all my blog has talked about is pain and depression. Sometimes, we'll just have to go with the emotions and at some point and time, we have to eventually move on. We have to do the best that we can and everything that we needed to do just for the sake of our own sanity. Was I crazy? Not exactly but I have been depressed and I have been doing everything that I can not to show or not to end up messing with my life big time. I have been sick for two weeks and being sick just made me sadder. I ended up not going to the gym and not eating and losing passion for everything that I loved. I have decided to stand up again and continue with catching up with all the things that I needed to do. I have returned to the gym, started my painting project again and listening to music as my outlet. I decided not to take life very seriously. I am somehow inspired by Holly Holiday. She is just so cool and free. I wanted to feel and live that way, she says that she lives a life with no consequence, I don't really think that way, I think, she just don't take life all that serious, she just does what she needs to do and have fun with life and that's what I am going to do. I know I have a lot of issues about my life, about different aspects in my life but I don't want to deal with them right now. I will just let it hang there, it will always be there anyway.... and hopefully, things will just be right and perfect again and if it doesn't, well, shit happens, we usually have a bad day and I'll just smile and pray that I will have the strength, the sanity, the friends and alcohol and of course, my luckies to stick with me through the rough times. peace out!

Batman

Comic freak...I never really followed the Batman story although all the comic heroes, he is my favorite and if a real Batman is alive, I would marry that guy. Seriously, he is strong, rich and smart, and do you know, Batman can even sing???? Hahaha, mataas talaga ang standard ko, won't settle with someone like Superman, faster than a speeding bullet, mamaya kung san pa siya mabilis, if you know what i mean, hahahaha, or with Scott Summers, ampota, dinaig pa si Randy Santiago sa pagtatago sa shades niya and seriously beyond that, what is Scott Summers good for and he has been cheating with Jean Grey din naman, so whatever. Or with Spiderman, mamaya, accidentally pa niya akong mapatay just like what he did with his blond girlfriend that I never liked so I don't care, saka masyadong madrama buhay ni Spiderman na never din naging sila ni Mary

 Jane, yeah, they were married but something happened, basta super tragic talaga. 

Whatever, at least normal pati si Batman, hindi siya mutant or alien or nakagat ng radioactive insect and that's what amazes me about him, he may not have super powers but he can be a hero. I know it's because he has money and their company has something to do with technology stuff so he has a lot of access but come on, sa dami ng bilyonaryo sa mundo natin ngayon, sino ang nagawa ng ganyan na nalabas ka sa gabi ng nakacostume natulong. Actually me nagawa niyan sa ngayon sa states eh, as in with the costume and all, helping people from the littlest of things hanggang sa pagcall out ng mga drug dealers and they are not even billionaires so ang point ko, the best talaga si Batman. Ang hindi ko lang gusto sa kanya eh yung he won't let go of his stupid cape. I mean, he never settled down, he only had a love child with some girl and in earth-two, he had Helena

 Wayne with Selina Kyle but guys, that's earth two. He lived in Wayne Manor but in the Silver Ages, he  had to move to a penthouse atop the Wayne Foundation. See, he is also charitable, besides the Wayne Industries, he does his charity work through Wayne Foundation; other things to note about Batman, he had sidekicks (Robin and Batgirl) and a butler who also assisted him with his escapades. Alfred Pennyworth, the English butler who raised Bruce, (though it was also said that Philip Wayne,his uncle raised him after his parents' death) and assisted him at the time that he has still no Robin and Lucius Fox who helps Bruce with his company and Batman with his suit and gadget are notable characters too. I have seen a lot of version of Batman adventures sa cartoons growing up pero talagang mapapansin mo na he's so smart like he never goes out there without a Plan B, plan C and he's just super smart. Meron akong isang episode na napanood, forgot which version that was, sa Cartoon Network ko napanood, about Mr. Freeze, he knew that after 1000 years, Mr. Freeze would come back and alam din niyang, kahit anong galing at yaman niya, wala na siyang magagawa about it but he was still able to come up with a plan in order for him to protect Gotham sa pagbabalik ni Mr. Freeze. After Batman RIP, Bruce's returns and decided that he will have Batman to do its cause globally and therefore, Batman Inc begins... hehe. 

For those who doesn't know, the origins of Batman, it all begun when Joe Chill killed his parents after watching the movie. It never made sense to me,they are socialites,in Gossip Girl, those kids always just hail a cab or they have a ride or something but I don't understand why the family have to be in some kind of an alley, grrrr. Anyway, if it weren't for the death of Thomas and Martha Wayne, no Batman. Bruce chose the bat costume because he wants to strike fear and terror in the hearts of the criminals or something to that effect. Anyways, we know the story of how he fights the crime in Gotham and against Joker, Two-face, Riddle, Penguin, others so let's discuss other things that most people would not know about Batman. First, in the Golden Age, he and Superman become honorary members of Justice Society of America which includes, 

Hawkman, Flash, Green Lantern and others. Haha. In Silver Age, the concept of Earth-Two was introduced, he and Superman worked together, founded the Justice League, we met Joker and Ra's al Ghul, a terrorist. Dick Grayson becomes Nightwing. Batman also founded Outsiders, these are also group of Superheroes that "would not normally fit the norms of superhero community". I don't know what that means, I was disinterested with that group knowing that their relationship with batman was strained and he eventually left them on their own. Batman had sidekicks; Dick Grayson, Jason Todd and Tim Drake, fourth Robin is a girl named Stephanie Brown, Tim Drake's girlfriend and the fifth Robin, Damian Wayne, the love child with some girl. As for the Batgirl, Kathy Kane was Batwoman and her niece was the first Batgirl and then Barbara Gordon, Helena Bertenelli, who also became the Huntress and is usually confused with Helena Wayne because they were both Huntress. Barbara and Helena are members of Birds of Prey.Cassandra cain was the next to become Batgirl and after Batman's apparent death, Stephanie Brown becomes Batgirl.  

Kahit naman ganyan si Batman, marami naman siyang love interest. In the beginning of Batman strips, he was engaged with Julie Madison, a socialite but they split up after Batman realized that he wanted more out of his life, he has to do things and not just be a playboy millionaire/billionaire. Linda Page, a woman that he dated after Julie. Next is Vicki Vale, she works for the Gotham Gazette and just reports what Batman does, pretty much like what Lois Lane does for Superman. I know there's this Batman in Earth-two, a parallel universe, where he married Selina Kyle a.k.a the Catwoman and they had Helena Wayne, a.k.a, the Huntress as their kid. I like this universe because one, I like Selina for Bruce and two, it seems like a happy ending although Selina and Bruce ended up dying, at least they lived a somewhat normal life. Due to homoeroticism accusation 

between Batman and Robin, they created a love interest for Batman, Kathy Kane who is the first Batwoman and her niece, Bette Kane is the first Batgirl. Talia Al-gul, the mother of Damian Wayne, was the daughter of a villain. Obviously, Batman has a thing for the bad girls, besides dating Catwoman, he and Poison Ivy had a sexual tension, and he and Harley Quinn just had something and was involved with Nocturna/Natalia Knight who became Jason Todd's surrogate mother. He also dated normal girls after, Silver St. Cloud, a socialite, deduced that she was dating Batman decided to split up with him, Rachel Caspian, the girl who Bruce was willing to give up his crime-fighting days for. There's actually a long list of girls, you can always look them up. :)

Depression and being positive

Sometimes, we just have to admit defeat and succumb to the pain that defeat brings upon us and that's exactly what happened to me this past week. Defeat is just a feeling that none of us wants to feel but at one point in our lives, we just have to accept it because we all experience defeat. For some reason, I felt that I was defeated by many things last week... by things that I do not and cannot control. Of all things, I just hate things that I cannot control because I cannot do something about it. One day, I just felt that there's nothing that I can do and I begun assessing my life and blaming it to random events in my life until I just felt tired and unhappy. I had to do a lot of projects but I just end up not being excited about anything. I was not even excited to do shopping and I end up eating ice cream for two straight days. I went to the gym just to ran for twenty minutes. I felt that endorphines are not and will no longer be reproduced again even if I ran for 2 hours. I felt that I lost my passion to do things. I don't even enjoy watching tv. I just watched tv so that the silence won't deafen me. I would even dine alone in our house or not eating at all. I started moving on when I decided to go out with my friends even if I lost the energy to do so. After letting all my feelings out, I just realized that despite things being uncontrollable, there is always something that I can do to make things better for me. I may have done something crazy but here's what I know, I will not regret that, I still respect myself, although I lost 5% and I feel that I am again in control of something again. I am just trying to see the positive  in things. I am now starting to work on my painting again and writing on my blog and fixing my sched. For the next few days, there are a lot of catching up to do so there will be no OT's, post-shift shopping and hanging out at the mall. I have to recalibrate my goals and focus and just keep on seeing the positive and things will be different for me. 

Romantic Movie List

I may hate love because I am the 'promotor' of the weird feeling that we call clac. To refresh, CLAC stands for Curiosity, L...., Attraction, Compassion/ Care/ Concern. It is a feeling that is detached but you are aware that you have a strong feeling for someone. Not here to discuss CLAC, anyways, I still believe in love and all the things they believe in. Haha. Everybody wants love but not everybody finds it and I am the unfortunate one who will never find it, probably other forms of love but I'm good right now with self-love. I am a little bit of a romantic but I am just mature enough to know that nothing amazingly romantic will happen to me or no knight in shining armor or prince charming will sweep me off my feet. Here are the eight romantic films that I recommend for everyone to see. They made me cry at one point or at least half part of the movie but still a good watch if you have nothing good to see on TV or to do with life and you just want to be inspired and be in love.


If only
This movie is at the top of my list. It made me cry from the beginning of the movie, at some parts in the middle and at the end. I know men say they love us and sometimes they are just too stupid to pay attention to the details and other things and they are busy doing other things that they do not show how they care for the girl they love and that's what Ian Wyndham realized after his girlfriend Samantha Andrews died. The following day, he was 

given another chance to save her but he realized that the inevitable is coming as he tried to stop things from happening but end up happening no matter how hard he tried, instead he just tried to show her how much she meant to him. This 2004 romantic drama film just shows that it does not matter whether you have 5 minutes or 5 decades with the person just make sure that you express how they meant to you before it's too late.   


A lot like Love
A story of two people who didn't realize what they really need after seven years. Sometimes we are just too preoccupied by work, hobby, other people to discover how we really feel for another person. Oliver Martin and Emily Friehl are two people who first met in a flight and joined the mile high club and Oliver gave his number. During the seven years, these two people would have encounters and when they are willing to give 

their weird relationship a try, they discover that the other is settled. This movie is a reminder for my weird interaction with someone. Just like Oliver and Emily, we're not exactly lovers, we're not exactly friends, he's always busy with his career, I am most of the time with a different boyfriend. I don't exactly know if I love him, I know I care but that's just it. Anyway, I just love the tag line of this movie, there's nothing better than a great romance to ruin a perfectly good friendship. This movie teaches us that no matter how cool and comfortable you are with each other, no matter how attracted you are with each other, timing really does matter and of course the willingness of both parties to be in a relationship. At the end, if two people are meant to be together, love finds a way to bring them back together.


50 first dates
I fell in love with Adam Sandler in this movie. As a kid, I grew up loving Nicholas Cage and now as a twenty something grown woman, I adore Gerald Butler but as a teenager, I just like the antics of Adam Sandler. Henry Roth is one of those jerks that some unfortunate woman meet. The one who will just use you, sleep with you and leave you with lies. He is similar to the character of Barney in 'How I met your mother' until one day he met this girl, Lucy Whitmore and he fell in love with her unfortunately, she does not remember him. Talk about karma, right? You want girls to just forget you but they won't and here comes the girl that you care for and yet she will never remember you and yet he does all this crazy things just to be close to her. Seriously,

 she is the perfect one night stand for a guy like Henry, he does not have to lie to him and he can leave and she won't remember, nobody gets hurt. He went to extremes such as acting dumb and cannot read the menu in the restaurant, he used his friend to beat him up, he even tapes record their first meeting and gives it to her everyday until basically, he makes her fall in love with him, the first thing in the morning, isn't that sweet? This 2004 romantic comedy is a little bit tragic at the middle part that I cried but it still has a good ending. Watch this with your boyfriend to remind you that making you fall in love with him is a daily process! 


My Amnesia Girl
Not really a big fan of Filipino movies but I am so in love with John Lloyd Cruz especially that he reminded me of some guy that I went out with at one time so I agreed watching this with my sister and my then boyfriend. Anyway, many people think that this 2010 romantic comedy is a ripped off of 50 first dates, it has a different story, at first I thought so too but my curiosity with the teaser just made me watch this film. I am also a fan of Toni Gonzaga so watching this even if it's crappy would not make me feel bad for spending money watching this but it turns out to be great so I highly recommend this. Their cheezy lines made it more enjoyable to watch. Irene and Apollo were lovers but on the day of there wedding, Apollo decided to ran off. It has been three years and on the day of his friend's wedding, he was reminded of Irene and he found her in a

grocery store just to discover that she does not remember him because she had amnesia. Apparently, Irene really has no amnesia, it was just the first thing that came to her head. She never thought that they would see each other so it doesn't matter but then Apollo ended up searching for her and finding her and tried to win her back. This movie shows us that when you are in love with someone, it does not know time limits and you will do anything for love. My favorite line or scene in this film was when Toni and John Lloyd were praying in the church and Toni was thanking God because she was just asking for pandesal and yet He gave her hamburger with fries referring to John Lloyd.

Win a Date with Tad Hamilton
The 2004 romantic comedy film that shows that not only boys are making mistakes when it comes to love but also girls. Rosalee wins a date with movie star Tad Hamilton. She has a best friend, Pete, who has been in love with her for the longest time. At first, Rosalee is just like a way to show directors that Tad has cleaned up

his act and they should continue casting him but then he realized that he is starting to have real feelings for her. Of course, we all girls had this stupid things in our head where in a prince charming will come for us and just take us to somewhere fun and will never be sad again... and that's what Rosalee has in her head. Definitely she chose the movie star who tells her that he loves her over the best friend who has been there for her and has loved everything that she is and she isn't. She did not realize how she felt about Pete until she heard the 6 smiles of Rosalee speech. The story of the movie, sometimes we get sidetracked by flashy people with their looks and money, before we realize who really loves us.

Good Luck Chuck
The 2007 romantic comedy about Chuck. It was a curse to Chuck that whoever sleeps with him will marry the guy that asks them out after Chuck. At first, it doesn't really matter to Chuck, at least, girls just throw

themselves to him but it becomes a problem when he falls in love with Cam Wexler. This movie is funny and sweet and the defines love in another way, Love is when guy will not have sex with the hot girl that he really loves because he is scared of losing her to someone else.

Love Actually
Love is not just romantic love as shown in this 2003 romantic comedy film. Billy Mac and Joe shows the love between friends. Joe is Billy Mac's manager while Billy Mac is an aging rock star whose latest project is a Christmas variation of Love is all around. This is a story of different people showing their love and how they act because they are in love; a guy will hide his true feelings for the girl that he has fallen in love for because

for his love for his best friend, a Prime Minister will do everything in his power just for the girl, a boy would learn the drums so that he can perform with his first love and even ran to the airport just to get the first kiss, a sister would ignore her chances for  the love of her life for her sick brother. Among the stories in this film, I like the story of Jaime and Aurelia. They lived in a cottage and they cannot understand each other because Jaime speaks English while Aurelia speaks Portuguese but you will see in the subtitles and how they interact with each other, that they have a connection and attraction and as Jaime follows Aurelia to her hometown so that he can propose to her. It was revealed that both has been trying to learn each other's language so that they can communicate.

Little Manhattan
“Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there.” that is the quote from the 2005 romantic comedy film about first love. You will always remember your first love no matter how many other loves comes next. This movie just melts my heart. I am amazed on how innocent and how cute love was defined in this movie. It is realistic and charming. This reminds us that love really does not have to be complicated and the most important thing is that you do your best to make sure that nothing is left unsaid because lovers come and go, sometimes it's just not meant to be but make sure that you have given your all to make that someone feel how you felt for them. Gabe and Rosemary Telesco are two 11-year old who live in 

New York, they have known each other since kindergarten but it was in their karate class when Gabe noticed how pretty Rosemary is. He realized that girls are pretty and are pretty nice to be with. As he gets to know her and spends more time with her, he realized that he is falling for her. They are just 11 so do not expect to see a happy forever after ending.  



I hope you will enjoy watching movies as much as I did! Ciao!

Chef's Table: A review

It was January when I learned that celebrity chef, Bruce Lim, opened up his restaurant called Chef's table at the Fort. I already booked a reservation like a month ahead when I failed to get tickets for Taylor Swift concert. I brought my sister there since may isang tao na sabi siya daw ang kasama ko pero hindi nagrereply or anything, mejo walang kwenta lang di ba tapos bigla na lang magrereply sa mismong araw na yun when I already made plans with my sister.
We went there nagtaxi na lang kami instead of taking the Fort bus and bumaba sa Market, market at maglakad. It was 8:30 when we arrived, buti na lang nagpareserve ako kasi the restaurant was puno. We started the evening with Cebuana Chili wings. Masarap siya but for some reason, me nakita kaming hair na

nakapulupot sa chicken. it's gross and we told them and they handled the situation well. Hindi na nga nila kinailangang ipaalam kay Chef eh, free n yung Chili wings. Then I had Chef's salad while my sister had Beefsteak Pasta. Mejo maasim lang ang Beefsteak pasta while the salad for me was perfect. I love the vinegarette, parang mali pa spelling pero whatever. The dessert was great. Naglangka brulee yung sister ko while I ordered Mango cheesecake. The Mango cheesecake had a thick crust though but the rest was perfection. For our drinks, we had Lemongrass Iced tea which is something I recommend.
The overall service was great, everyone was friendly and chef was socializing with friends and everyone. If someone approaches him for the great food, he is just nice to talk to them kahit na hindi niya sila personally friend. Gusto ko nga sana siyang iapproach but nahiya ako. Naaliw ako kasi he was a big guy tapos napakadown to earth at nakashorts lang siya.
All in all, nagenjoy ako at hindi naman ako nanghihinayang sa perang binayad ko and nirecommend ko pa yung place for my dad's birthday kasi nga Filipino cuisine with a twist ang hain nila. I wouldn't give it 5 stars though because of the buhok incident but 4 stars na lang siguro dahil magaling ang customer service nila and I really had a fun night. They made sure that we were taken care of and all our needs were met.

Kapag bumalik ang x mo, anong sasabihin mo?

Grabe, super hindi ako makatulog kasi me nabalitaan akong napakagandang balita at naexcite ako at para madagdagan pa ang excitement ko, nkita ko pa ang fb account niya, yum! Hahahaha. eto ang blog na hindi niya pwedeng mabasa. hahahahaha. Hay, gusto ko lang makatulog.... Habang hindi, nag-isip ako ng mga bagay-bagay at eto ang naisip kong ibuhos ang enerhiya ko, sa tanong na, kapag bumalik ang x mo, ano ang sasabihin mo? Marami sa mga x ko, ang marami akong gustong sabihin pero hindi ko sila papangalanan, wala lang ayoko lang.

Para sa x ko whose name rhymes with Shroon Shrosa, 'Ngaun naiintindihan ko na ang lahat, no need to explain the past. Bakit ka pati babalik ngayon, hindi mo ba magamit ang pamilya ng ipinalit mo sa akin?'
Burn!!!!! Babala, wag na wag kang babalik na manggagamit ka, dahil hindi lang yan ang masakit na sasabihin ko sa 'yo. Sisiguraduhin kong sa sobrang sakit ng maririnig mo sa akin, magdidilim ang paningin mo at makakalimutan mong babae ako, at wag kang mag-alala, nakahanda akong saktan ka ng pisikalan kapag sinaktan mo ako.
Para sa x kong whose name rhymes with Vice Vaymundo, 'Wag na, no chance, me ilang panganay ka na noh. Ayoko ngang mag-anak gagawin mo naman akong instant mommy to N number of kids, ano ako, just add hot water?'
Ok lang na magpapabalik balik ka once a year, it gives me satisfaction na hindi ka na nakahanap ng better than me. I love your family as in wala akong maisip ni isa sa mga x ko na mahal ko ang pamilya tulad ng pagmamahal ko sa family mo so I'd rather be friends with you, kung ok lang.
Sa isa mga x ko whose name rhymes with Raolo Ran Rose, 'Sino ka? Kilala ba kita?' (gagayahin ko si Toni sa My Amnesia Girl)
Ito ang pinakanakakalokang taong nakilala ko. Kesyo nagCanada daw siya kaya kelangan naming maghiwalay pero mga 1 month pa syang nagtraining sa APAC non. Whatever. Nagsisi akong jinowa ko ang taong ito kaya magpapanggap na lang akong hindi ko siya nakilala, hinalikan or whatever.
Para sa x kong whose name rhymes with Jenneth Jantimbuhan, 'I love you din pero we're better na ganito lang tayo.'
May age gap tayo alam mo yan, tapos sa mga pinaggagagawa mo pa recently marami akong kinukwestiyon at naguguluhan ako, mabuti pang wag na lang saka ikaw ang x na kahinaan ko at basta. Sa tingin ko kapag hindi nagworkout for us for the second time, parang hindi ko na alam kung anong susunod na mangyayari sa atin na mabuti na lang na wag na lang nating itry, ok na yung kung ano yung meron tayo.